Wednesday, December 23, 2009

My 2 favorite ladies!!!







I love my sister Faith more then.... Ice cream, rain, oranges, and even some other relatives that will remain unnamed. ;D I also love Haven, my cousins daughter. She lives with us, and we get to see her beautiful face everyday. Coincidentally Haven has decided she loves Faith the mostest, and is constantly begging for her attention. These are some precious photos I caught during shnuggly time! :D

Thursday, December 17, 2009

December 17th 2009

It's said that friends will always move on, and it's just our family's that will always be there. I love my family. And I love my friends. But maybe it's time I come to terms with this. My best friend has blown me off 3 times in the last week. I know that things happen. I know things come up. But there is no reason not to call and not to let me know what's going on. I wrote a different friend and let her know that we can call things ended. It might sound bitter and resentful, but I think it's to protect me. I want to be forgiving, and let things go. But to keep doing it isn't worth it. I know that life will treat her well, and I want all the best for her. I love my family. Even when I don't act like it, I love my family. I love my friends, but I don't need them. I don't want to need them. I won't let myself need them.

Monday, December 7, 2009

December 7th 2009

I am sitting on a bus on my way to New York City. I am on my way to audition for the New York Film Academy. My acceptance is not based on this audition, rather my worth in financial aid scholarships, and class placement. I am performing 2 monologues. I'll see if I can't figure out how to add videos for you to watch. In a few minutes I will also write a letter for my grant application. My tuition for the 1 year program is $25,000. If I recieve the grant, it is worth $15,000 tuition. I will write well I think. It's an expensive letter. :D I have finished my time with the Sisto family. I am staying with my Uncle Jeff, Aunt Karen and family until I fly home to Utah in a few days. I'm excited to be home for the holidays. But I am anxious about going home. I feel like I have taken 3 giant steps into the path to my future, and going home is like pausing and taking a step back. I have been granted a position at my old job. Sub Zero Ice Cream. I love that place, with an amazing boss, ice cream, and making people smile everyday it's a blast. But I can't stay forever. Hopefully I don't have to stay long. My plan is to work there, find other work, save like crazy. Pay for my deposit at the Academy, save like crazy. Either find a cheap way to live in New York. i.e. Nanny, rent a room from a family, etc. Then move to New York and start working. Or find like 3 jobs in Utah, and save like crazy at home. I just worry about getting into the lull and comfort and ease of home. Anywho. That is the plan. Until I get home, and sit down with my mom( who is amazing at details whereas I am not!)then I won't know exactly where I'm headed. Keep your eye out, I'll keep you posted, and you'll be seeing me around!