Life, Liberty and Property!

http://www.isil.org/resources/introduction.swf
Please watch this video! It is so important that we as a people understand what it means to have Self-Ownership. You own your life. No man, group, or government has the power to take your life. Nor do you have the power to take theirs. This video spells things out simply, but it's a lot to accept if you aren't ready!

The Result...

Between Christmas day, and New Years Day I worked all but one day at Sub Zero. Long hours, many much Ice Cream making, and lots of fun. But it was exhausting. I've also not been sleeping well. I share a room with my youngest sister, and the twin I sleep on is way to squishy. I sleep better when I sleep with my bestie Faith, on her bed, ( it's much firmer ) But I've been opting not to, because my baby Ellie. My beautiful deaf kitty, has to be on a leash attached to my bed post so she does not terrorize our posessions while we are all sleeping. Ellie also wakes up with the equivalent of kitty nightmares, whatever those are, and I like to be there to hush her, and pet her. Anywho, as an impending result, I was super much exhausted, and I had my first semi road accident ever. I was driving home late from work, Midnight 30ish, and I hallucinated my phone ringing. I say hallucinated, because it turns out the call never existed. I think I reached for my bag, or I blinked too long, but I drifted to the side of the road. Only going 30 mph or so, but I hit a wall of plowed snow with the right side of the truck. I bounced over the wall of snow, and ran myself thigh deep into snow. Ooops! Luckily my fantastic brother in law, Mitch, has traded in his beloved sports cars, and of late has been driving a Jeep. He easily pulled me out later the next day, and the truck is fine. It was an adventure, and surely something to laugh about now. But I'll be sure to solve my sleeping issues, before I work another week like that one! :D

My 2 favorite ladies!!!

I love my sister Faith more then.... Ice cream, rain, oranges, and even some other relatives that will remain unnamed. ;D I also love Haven, my cousins daughter. She lives with us, and we get to see her beautiful face everyday. Coincidentally Haven has decided she loves Faith the mostest, and is constantly begging for her attention. These are some precious photos I caught during shnuggly time! :D

December 17th 2009

It's said that friends will always move on, and it's just our family's that will always be there. I love my family. And I love my friends. But maybe it's time I come to terms with this. My best friend has blown me off 3 times in the last week. I know that things happen. I know things come up. But there is no reason not to call and not to let me know what's going on. I wrote a different friend and let her know that we can call things ended. It might sound bitter and resentful, but I think it's to protect me. I want to be forgiving, and let things go. But to keep doing it isn't worth it. I know that life will treat her well, and I want all the best for her. I love my family. Even when I don't act like it, I love my family. I love my friends, but I don't need them. I don't want to need them. I won't let myself need them.

December 7th 2009

I am sitting on a bus on my way to New York City. I am on my way to audition for the New York Film Academy. My acceptance is not based on this audition, rather my worth in financial aid scholarships, and class placement. I am performing 2 monologues. I'll see if I can't figure out how to add videos for you to watch. In a few minutes I will also write a letter for my grant application. My tuition for the 1 year program is $25,000. If I recieve the grant, it is worth $15,000 tuition. I will write well I think. It's an expensive letter. :D I have finished my time with the Sisto family. I am staying with my Uncle Jeff, Aunt Karen and family until I fly home to Utah in a few days. I'm excited to be home for the holidays. But I am anxious about going home. I feel like I have taken 3 giant steps into the path to my future, and going home is like pausing and taking a step back. I have been granted a position at my old job. Sub Zero Ice Cream. I love that place, with an amazing boss, ice cream, and making people smile everyday it's a blast. But I can't stay forever. Hopefully I don't have to stay long. My plan is to work there, find other work, save like crazy. Pay for my deposit at the Academy, save like crazy. Either find a cheap way to live in New York. i.e. Nanny, rent a room from a family, etc. Then move to New York and start working. Or find like 3 jobs in Utah, and save like crazy at home. I just worry about getting into the lull and comfort and ease of home. Anywho. That is the plan. Until I get home, and sit down with my mom( who is amazing at details whereas I am not!)then I won't know exactly where I'm headed. Keep your eye out, I'll keep you posted, and you'll be seeing me around!

Epitome

This photo is the epitome of my thoughts, and actions in regards to my future. I don't believe in karma, but I do believe in God. Is it silly to think this was a gift from him?

Famous!

I decided this week that I am going to be famous. I do not have any strong inclination towards music, or dancing. Oh heavens I cannot dance! I am not much for writing. Trust me I've tried. Being an avid reader, everything comes out a knock off of something I've read. But all my life, I've loved attention. It may sound conceded, and that's ok. Some people are shy, some people are not. I am ready to be recognized for something. I am ready for people to know my name. I want to be something great. Growing up, I always played make believe. I was always pretending to be someone else. Through school and life I did the same. People probably thought I was awkward, trying to figure out who I was. Then the other night, Bam! Epiphany! Maybe that is me. I enjoy being someone else. All the time, when I am out in public, shopping, church, wherever. I like to pretend. So, I've decided to go for it. It's not going to be easy, heck it's going to be really hard. But I'm going to figure out where to start, I'm going to believe I can do it, and I'm going to blow you all away. This would be a journal entry, but hey, noone but me ever reads my journal, and that's just not true to my nature. Haha. So now you're all in on my secret. When I walk down the Red Carpet, you can all (all few of you) say you read about that day here. And I promise, I won't forget you!